If you're called of God, the enemy will always offer you suicide

When the enemy sees that the Lord is raising you up, he will send all kinds of wickedness to block you. And when he thinks you're overwhelmed, he will suggest that you commit suicide. 

This is a crucial point in warfare because you will either choose to rebuke his wicked offer or surrender to him. 

Those who are walking in the Light will immediately ask God for angelic assistance and declare, For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to PROSPER you and NOT TO HARM you, plans to give you HOPE and a FUTURE (Jeremiah 29:11). 

They will also aggressively shout, I will NOT DIE; instead, I will LIVE to tell what the LORD has done (Psalm 118:17).

That is how you conquer those dark forces. Don't let suicidal thoughts linger in your  mind! USE YOUR SPIRITUAL WEAPONS THAT GOD GAVE YOU THROUGH JESUS CHRIST  (YESHUAH-MASHIACH). Arise, get out of your emotions, and live! 

No matter what you have done, Jesus Christ died for those sins. Now repent, accept forgiveness, and LIVE!